You know how when you watch the movie a second time, you know what’s going to happen, but you so desperately hope it doesn’t? It’s odd that it is so commonplace for your brain to ignore logic and fight the inevitable. And even having this understanding, all of us will continue to take harder paths all in the name of faith.

There was once a time in my life where all I did was what other people considered nothing. The truth is, we can’t possibly go through life without purpose or an activity. So while other people would say, “he just plays games all day. he doesn’t do much,” I would say different.

Very much different.

I was the leader of a rather large and active guild in the World of Warcraft. Such a boast would normally trigger no double takes or looks of surprise in the real world. Usually people pity or just laugh. But to me and my army of virtual soldiers, it was nothing to scoff at.

So what does the leader of a rather large and active guild do? Well, not much. I woke up every day early, sleep deprived, and malnourished to log on and play. My girlfriend and I would sit there for what most people would consider plenty of time to be at a job.

It was a fun year or so. Doing nothing. I had light semesters during school, but no job. But essentially, I was a bum.

Then something clicked.

I went out into the real world. Wanting a break from it all. School, games, everything. I found myself a job.

People no longer pitied me. No one laughed at me. I was a working man. One of them. I was certainly more socially acceptable, but it didn’t feel much different. I sat there everyday and just ground my day out. Came home, went to bed, and repeated it the next morning.

So now, here I am.

Sitting here.

In the real world.

I’m still here, trying to make something of myself.

And to my dismay, I find myself, once again, wanting a break from it all.

Me

I get in my car everyday after my hour long work out at eight. The radio is on loud, because I like to drown out my thoughts from a long day’s work. It’s now nine at night, the same time I’m done everyday. The top 10 is on the local radio again and the same song has been in the tenth slot for two weeks now. I hate this song, but I’m too lazy to change it. I roll down my windows, because it’s hot and the wind feels nice.

The World

It’s the same story with that guy. He comes in, works out for an hour, then leaves everyday at about nine. He gets in his car, blasts his stereo, and rolls down the windows. And I swear to God, everyday for the last two weeks, he’s been listening to 7 Things by Miley Cyrus. Seriously. That guy is such a fag.